January 23, 2009

We have a heartbeat!

"Oh, no. I'll find it." That's what Stephanie said (with a comforting combination of cockiness and confidence) when I asked if it was too early to hear anything.

And she did. The relief that swept over me when I heard that little heartbeat was more familiar than I thought it would be. Jack was sitting on Kyle's lap and they were sitting next to me. When that faint whirring sound started, I was immediately taken back to almost 2 1/2 years ago, laying in the room next door listening to his heartbeat for the first time.

The little guy measures 6 weeks 2 days, and the heartrate was 115 . . . which is right where it should be. I got so choked up. It became very real. We are having a baby. Another one. A surprise. I can honestly say that I NEVER thought that would be the case.

The relief I felt in that room was short-lived. My anxiety returned on the way home as I worried about . . .well, everything. Here's how the next 8 months of our life will go:

January 23 - February 8 . . . winter youth retreats
February 8 - February 14 . . . increased valentine's day card business? possibly? hopefully?
February 14 - February 28 . . . gone to Florida
March 1 - March 4 . . . MI CCCA conference on the west side of the state
March 30 - May 15 . . . Baseball season for Kyle (ugh) and getting ready for summer camps
May 31 - August 13 . . . Summer camps
August 13 - September 16 . . . wrap up summer camps, get ready for fall programs, get ready for baby #2
September 17 . . . Due with baby #2

It'll all work out. At least, that's what I keep telling myself.

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