August 17, 2009

Man's best friend

We've had a few responses to our ad to find a new family for Murphy.

I know that this is what's best . . . and I know that it's what I want. She needs people who are home more often. She needs a fenced in place to run. She hasn't really chewed anything but her toys since she was a puppy, but over the last two weeks, she's started chewing up toys, clothes, etc. Not because she's a bad dog, but because she's bitter that we've been gone so much. Right after camp ended last year, she squatted and peed right on my foot. It's hard not to take that personally.

I love the thought of not having to think about what she might chew up, and not having to worry that she'll bark at a shadow in the back yard and wake up the boys. I love the idea that I'll never have to worry that she'll pee in the house as payback for us being gone all day. I love the thought of being able to open the door to leave without having to squeeze out the smallest opening possible to keep her from escaping. I like the idea of being able to leave the baby playing on the floor for a minute without worrying that she'll be there licking his face when I get back.

My hope had been to find someone that we know to take her so that we could be 100% sure that she was well cared for. But we haven't been able to find anyone. So, I placed an ad online and received a response. I asked Kyle if it was weird that I didn't want to send her to to someone who uses bad grammar. He just laughed. And I cried.

The thought of sending her somewhere new is tearing me up inside. She's been with us for four years . . . since she was a puppy. She was my consolation when I didn't think we'd ever have kids. I picked her out specifically to come home with us. I'll miss how excited she is when we get home. I'll miss watching her head tilt and her ears perk up when she hears the words, "walk" or "treat." She really is a great dog for a family who's home more than we are.

I know that if we find a good home, I'd be over it in a few weeks . . . especially with the baby almost here, but it's still an emotional thing. I have an emotional attachment to this puggle. And if we do find a new home (and I truly hope we do), I'll miss her terribly.

6 comments:

Alison said...

Oh man... I *almost* want her! We have a 1 year old boxer. They could be great friends. But I'm pretty sure that I'm a one dog mommy! If you lived closer...

Good luck! And hang in there...

Kristi said...

If only I was home more than you guys are, I'd totally take this pup. But I think she'd end up just as bitter here. I hope you find Murphy a good new family :)

Minnie said...

I am tearing up for you. I totally understand the feelings.

Just pray on it.

mel::: said...

so we have a couple questions about Murphy (whom Kevin has never met! but definitely nearly fell in love with her picture.)
Are you selling her or are you giving her away?
Is she a barker?
Would a chain/stake in the back yard be enough to give her running time without getting away?
She's an indoor dog, right?

We've talked about wanting a dog but haven't been convinced yet, but figured if we could make you and us happy at the same time...
:D

Annie said...

can you find a home for my cats too?

Sarah said...

Oh Sara, I know it must be hard :( I can totally understand why you're looking for a new home for him, but at the same time, very heartwrenching to say goodbye to the little guy who has been part of your family for the past 4 years.