May 18, 2007

Bummed out.

Today's been a down day. I just have felt "not right" all day. The baby's moving and there's nothing really that I can put my finger on, but I just feel different. I had to sit down to rest twice all in the time in took me to make the bed this morning. I'm constantly worried that there will be something wrong with the baby. I think part of the reason I want to go into labor so badly is so I don't have to sit around wondering if he's healthy or not. And, every time I walk by a mirror I want to cry. There was just a Yoplait commercial on tv that begins with a voice saying, "Wouldn't it be great to have a smaller waist?" Yes, yes it would. I completely lost my cool with Murhpy today which made me question my ability to be a good parent. I lost my keys which about pushed me over the edge. I tried to make two casseroles to freeze for after the baby's born and ended up with spaghetti sauce all over my shirt. It was just one of those days.

Fortunately, I sat down this afternoon to make a list of things that I'm thankful for and they far outweighed the things I'm bummed out about.

On a brighter note, I got a gift in the mail last week from Julie Bayer containing onesies that made me laugh so hard. Seriously, you won't think they're funny unless you were on our staff two or three years ago, but here they are:

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