Yawn . . .

I've read that you are the most tired in your first trimester of pregnancy, especially in the first few weeks . . . but this is ridiculous! I can barely keep my eyes opened long enough to type this and I've yawned 3 or 4 times already. If I didn't know I was pregnant, I'd think I had mono. I'm super irritable too (well, I guess more than normal). I don't know if that's a result of being pregnant or being tired.

I didn't realize how hard it was going to be not to tell anyone. In church this morning, someone asked us how our treatments were going and we just didn't answer so they assumed things hadn't worked out on this try. It was so hard not to cry "It worked! It worked! It worked!"

I've surfed the web and seen a lot of pages on pregnancy. I've seen every page on infertility, gonal-f, polycycstic ovarian syndrome and more so it was nice to go to more positive sites. I found a due date calculator and found that my due date will be around May 25, and that the first heartbeat would be as early as September 29! That's 12 days away! According to the calculator, I'm 4 weeks, 1 day along . . . and I'm not sure how that works because I know for a fact (thanks to modern science and Dr. Aimee) that I ovulated on the 31st of August and conceived on September 1. I have to go back to my RE's office for a while before I see an OB/GYN. Hopefully they'll explain all of this to me.

It's still so crazy to think that this is actually happening. I'm VERY nervous that I'll miscarry especially today since I've had a lot of cramping. Odds aren't really in my favor, but I know more impossible things have happened.

I'm going to go take a nap.