I'm sitting here, feeling contractions and knowing that this baby girl will likely come today or tomorrow and feeling panicked because I haven't recorded much about this pregnancy. I suppose it's to be expected by baby #4 . . . there's no time to sit down and write.
I've had as much, if not more, swelling with this pregnancy than I did with Jack's. I didn't have much swelling or carpal tunnel issues with Ben or Claire. But this time around it's awful. I think it was exacerbated by all of the painting . . . I'm not sure it would be this bad otherwise.
I'm so excited to meet Hattie and to not be pregnant, but I'm really, really sad for this pregnancy to be over. It's my last, and I feel like I'm saying goodbye to an old friend. Part of me is elated that I'll NEVER HAVE TO DO THIS AGAIN! Another part of me is so sad that I'll never GET to do this again.
I've been much more relaxed with this pregnancy, likely because I've been so consumed with busyness and moving that I haven't had much time to think about anything else. I feel like Hattie moves less than the others did at this stage, but it might just be that I sit still less than I did at this stage with the others.
Watching Jack, Ben and Claire prepare for a new sister has been fun. Claire calls all of her dolls "Hattie" and "baby sister." She bathes them, changes their diaper and is overall pretty gentle and loving. I hope it stays that way!
Jack has become pretty helpful, and won't let me carry anything. Even pizza boxes. I think he's seen Kyle take care of me in that way and feels like he should, too.
Every time I ask or tell Bennett to do something, he says, "Because you're pregnant?" It's funny.
All three of them hug and kiss my belly. They talk to Hattie and laugh when she moves. When Claire asks Hattie questions like, "Do you love your big sister?" I'll gasp and say, "She just shook her tushie!" and Claire cracks up like it's the funniest thing she's ever heard.
I've had a LOT of trouble sleeping over the last 2 weeks, mainly because my hands hurt so bad from the carpal tunnel. On the bright side I've had lots of extra time to paint, unpack, etc.
I'm so excited to meet this little girl, and while being pregnant isn't my favorite, I feel so, so fortunate to have the privilege of carrying her.