I've been flipping through pictures of the day Jack was born . . . five years ago today. I felt a lot of things as I was looking through them, but the biggest realization to wash over me was "we had no idea what we were doing."
We really didn't.
I had read dozens of books. I trawled websites and asked questions. Still, on June 2, 2007, we were in totally over our heads. I was looking at a photo of Jack laying in his crib for the first time on the day we brought him home. I remember that moment. I remember looking at him there and thinking, "What have we gotten ourselves into."
But, thanks to Jesus and google, we've kept him alive and happy for five whole years. We've officially been married with kids longer than we were married without kids. Our house is louder and messier, and I haven't had free time since . . . well, I can't even remember. But I wouldn't have it any other way.
I love this picture. It's not the best picture of the two of us, but it was at that very moment that my capacity to love was stretched beyond what I knew was possible. I had already been his mother for 41 weeks already, but at that point, I actually felt like his mom.
Happy birthday, Jackson William! I'm so grateful for you!